Pedestrian Life

by Jay Leibowitz

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released 11 April 2012

All songs written by Jay Leibowitz
Produced by Zac Lasher
Mixed by Josh Parrish
Recorded in Bushwick by Brooklyn Sound Lab and Rad Studio
Mastered by Totalsonic

Guitars and Vocals: Jay Leibowitz
Keyboards: Zac Lasher
Bass: Daniel J. McNaney
Drums: Jack Criswell
Guitar solo on Pedestrian Life: Vin Stanton

Album Cover Photos by David K. Browning

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Jay Leibowitz New York

Born down the shore in 1975. Skipped recess in 1981 to work on cursive. Started making music on a toy piano and Bundy sax in 1984. Bought Yamaha's first Clavinova with bar mitzvah money in 1988. Started writing poetry in 1989. Started playing guitar in 1992. Recorded first song on a four-track in 1993. At the age of 35, finally got it together to make a record. Finished it two years later. ... more

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Track Name: The Message
hey man

it's jay

um

what if i move in and we make a record

what do you think about that

i know you have cats

i'm talking temporarily

maybe through the winter

what do you think

i'm so tired and miserable

call me back
Track Name: Pedestrian Life
she said she never howled at the moon
but she once saw every star from a field in June
and I said i thought my head was clean
til I found the ghost in the machine
and there's warplanes circling the city
up on forty-five I see 'em so pretty

my manifesto's getting old
i forgot the things I sold
for my pedestrian life

the day she left I had my heart attack
and I know she aint ever coming back
so i'm trying to get my head clean
cause i don't wanna be part of this machine
and downstairs there's pictures on the teevee
and I swear the commercials terrify me

my manifesto's getting old
i forgot the things I sold
for my pedestrian life

and first I'm gonna tear up that ticket
and I'll that cigarette and kick it

(instrumental)

and the thing that I can't swallow
is the divinity of man
and I'm afraid I'm hollow
try and catch me if you can
and time can never break this
because I loved you from the inside
I'm sorry I can't take this
but I don't wanna fight
I don't wanna fight
I don't wanna fight
I'm too tired to fight
Track Name: Stuck
first day of spring
wind's blowing cold
rocks in a pot somebody left on the stove
don't know what i'm doing here

i think if my dreams babe
i think about you
looking up at a sky
that doesn't ever go blue
don't know what i'm doing anymore

sun comes up on the bright lights
what's out there to see
gonna figure out
how i'm getting out

picture on the mirror
it's the one of you and me
was a guy on the bus
praying on his rosary
cigarettes next to the laptop

i'm staring outside
at the debris
that big old house
they tore up next to me
bills again piling up

she leaves the lights on
she slams the door
what the hell is she waiting for

gonna figure out
how to get her out
she got stuck

books about god
can they lead the way
to something they maybe knew yesterday
tough to figure out

police on the corner
doing the shuffle
i heard
scooter got hooked up in a scuffle
yeah i played it loud

i'm just
sitting her trying to finish this flick
waiting for that extra kick

i'm gonna figure out
how i'm getting out
cause i'm getting out
yes i'm getting out

i got stuck
just a little stuck
no big deal
Track Name: Mother's Day
said she's as sober as a judge
and i wasn't feeling so bad
so i took her back home
thinking bout how lucky i am
another one of those nights
riding with the drunks on the path
when i got her back home
we stayed up all night and we laughed
and i played my guitar

she said did you hear
about the people that came out of the trees
they walked right out
looking for something to be
said those metal birds in the sky
are they riding on invisible roads
you see we came outside
cause we were hoping that somebody would know
where are they flying to

(instrumental)

she got out of bed
and asked me if i knew how to pray
i told her the thing
is just knowing what you wanna say
walked her down to the train
and showed her which way to go
watched her walk down the stairs
and remembered it was time to go
home for mother's day
Track Name: Misguided
the techno-haze
the drone of it all
the double-face
the photo on the wall
the numbing of
my particular mind
your losing faith
i'm losing time
where's the drama
where's the crisis
my head's in the hum
of a thousand devices

these hero stories
i've been telling myself
i can't keep it going
with my life on the shelf
where's the joy
where's the love
i know i'm never gonna
find it in that drug

they made the decision for me again
decided i'm much too good

but maybe
i'm a little misguided
maybe there's a pill i could take
i could bury all my love in the break
of a wave
crashing down
on the beach
on some white shore
but i won't run away
no i won't be afraid

life is short
and life is long
in your heart
you know right from wrong
i never needed anybody
telling me what's what
i knew it all from the start
one day a big rain's gonna come
and wash up these streets
gonna make em all shiny
and make em clean
i'm gonna build a big boat
and then i'm gonna float
away

i don't know maybe
i'm a little misguided
maybe there's a pill i could take
i could bury all my love in the break
of a wave
crashing down
on the beach
on some white shore
but i won't run away
no i won't be afraid

sometimes the only way
of holding tight
is by letting go
so i'm letting go
here i go letting go
Track Name: Settle Down
don't know which way you're going
don't know which way you been
you're always turning around
down on the ground
don't even know what's a sin

you've been trying to settle down
you've been trying to settle down

people saying they'll kill you
and you don't know quite what to do
and you read all the rules
that they sat on in school
but what good did they ever do you

you've been trying to settle down
you've been trying to settle down

people all over the planet
one thing everyone knows
we're from the same stuff
that the world was made of
and that's all that you can ever be sure

and you you heard about a place in the distance
where promise is on top of a hill
where the true will of grace
will come crashing from space
and land with space-tested skill

something you never thought of
whenever your vision got blurred
every time the sun's come to shine
on the spinning of the beautiful world

and so you gotta get going
there's something you're forgetting to do
gotta get in your car
don't have to drive very far
gotta get your shit fixed by noon

you've been trying to settle down
you've been trying to settle down
Track Name: If I Ever
how do you see the world
i think it all connects in some kinda circle
we come together in ways i don't know
and baby i just don't care if i ever do

when we were younger i'd dream about
everything that you thought you'd figured out
i'd think myself into your little box
but your heart was always locked up like fort knox

and now you rant and you rave about how i objectify
even as i look into your eye
like you don't know that you've been staring at
another beat-up old and busted alley cat

so how do you see the world
i think it all connects in some kinda circle
we come together in ways i don't know
and baby i just don't care if i ever do

and now you told every single guy you know
exactly everything he's been waiting for
and i guess that you got my number too
but i ain't got the time for being blue

if you could see yourself with my eye
maybe you'd shut up and testify
but every single night we go to bed
i forget the shit you put into my head

you're trouble baby
you lost my radio
and the song i played was playing just for you
but your eyes were closed
and your static turned up loud
as you whisked yourself away into the crowd

so how do you see the world
i think it all connects in some kinda circle
we come together in ways i don't know
and baby i just don't care if i ever do

baby i just don't care if i ever do
Track Name: Same Thing
it's unsolicited
i didn't ask
i'm a resident
just let me pass
i'm a prisoner
in my own home
i'm outside
on the telephone
it rings and rings
just leave a message and i'll call you back

it's the same thing
it's the same thing
it's the same thing
every day
it's the same thing
it's the same thing
it's the same thing
as yesterday

every which way
i'm stretched thin
in my head
i'm on television
i'm a sheep
in my wolf clothes
i take advantage
she never knows
vanity addiction
and my load's twice as big

it's the same thing
it's the same thing
it's the same thing
every day
it's the same thing
it's the same thing
it's the same thing
as yesterday
Track Name: Impostor
jonny's an impostor
and he's leaving
been hiding here day after day
making believing

jonny's not a character
in somebody's story
he's tired of your talk
and your bullshit glory

this isn't his life
this isn't what asked for
it isn't what he wanted
it wasn't what he is

no, jonny's an impostor
and he's leaving
been hiding here day after day
making believing

and when those kids knocked him down
he fell hard to the ground
he lost a piece
released to that terrible sound

and his head went away
to some glorious day
he took of his shirt
with his world full of hurt
he was two heartbeats
two heartbeats away

(instrumental)

and jonny's angry with jesus
just like he's always been
this infallible thing you've mistaken for king
infatuated with sin

yeah he's angry with jesus
and i guess he will be for life
i give mine to the meek
with my brusied other cheek
under the knife

jonny's an impostor
and he's leaving
been hiding here day after day
making believing

jonny's not a character
in somebody's story
he's tired of your talk
and your bullshit glory
Track Name: Stockholm Syndrome
you knocked me down
a dozen times
at least i let you think so
but one day son
the well runs dry
i'm not what you thought
you made me into
maybe you just never took the time
to wonder why we all walked away
man
there's nothing left to say

it's stockholm syndrome
my answer man is nothing at all
it's stockholm syndrome
my answer man is nothing at all

black hole tyrant
get out of your chair
you just patronize
while i pretend
maybe you never saw me standing there
you're just some kid
sitting up on a fence
you never knew me
you never knew me
your dagger talk
just burned right through me
please
just let me go

it's stockholm syndrome
my answer man is nothing at all
it's stockholm syndrome
my answer man is nothing at all
it's stockholm syndrome
my answer man is nothing at all
it's stockholm syndrome
my answer man is nothing at all

i just wanted you to see
how what you believe
could be dangerous
i just wanted you to be
misguided like me
i confess
i watch the white boy prophets evangelize
the riders on the bus
it isn't safe here
i think the kids are coming for us

it's stockholm syndrome
my answer man is nothing at all
it's stockholm syndrome
my answer man is nothing at all
it's stockholm syndrome
my answer man is nothing at all
it's stockholm syndrome
my answer man is nothing at all
Track Name: Sentimental
it all changed six years ago
in the rain by the stage door
on the cusp in love with everyone
on the porch my mind racing
everything i was erasing
it doesn't matter about the time

and it was all the girls and me
and how you wore my tapestry
and how i tore it off that night
and i remember what you said
when i held your weary head
the night the show played in the rain

you said goodbye
but it's never goodbye
when your life
is on the boards
and i'm the age that jesus was
the day he got up on the cross
he knew exactly
what he was

these nights are the best i've known
i've still got this place to go
where people look me in the eye
and we're not the same
but maybe the game is done
and we can all just have a drink

the love i've carried for you
nights at 22
where my heart gets as big as it gets
where i paid my dues
where i got the blues
so many times the tears
just followed the heartache
but these are different times
and man it blows my mind
how many times it all
just got in my way
and it's so familiar
losing love can kill ya
let's just stay crazy waddiya say
let's just stay crazy

another sentimental song
it don't matter what went wrong
cause we've all learned
that summers end
and it's good to see you friend
i'm okay to love again
and i've got so much more to say
so i'll stick around another day

and fill my time with you
i'll fill my time with you
i'll fill my time with you